Boss B*tch

This is my first artwork for the month of March and it reflects my current state of mind. The heartache I felt a week ago made me realize a lot of stuff.

I thought I would have to narrate some of the things that happened in order for me to move forward but a few days back, I woke up and just had an awakening.

I was in an on-off relationship that lasted for almost a year. The pain for my ex and me was too much than the love we have given to each other. To be honest, the recent breakup just felt final. There are still moments when I can't control my sadness and tears would end up falling in my eyes. Wherever I look, all these little things remind me of him that make my mind flooded with bittersweet memories. You can't unlove someone, you just learn how to live without them in your life.

I regularly do a self-check and whenever I miss him, I would just remind myself why the relationship failed. Weighing the pros and cons helps me as well to get back on track. Above all, I don't think much about who's at fault because it just didn't work out. Simple as that.

SELF-HEALING

Since the breakup, I've been channeling all the negativity into something else. Instead of staying in bed doing nothing, I get up and do my planned projects. I also find designing therapeutic which keeps my mind in creative mode and prevents me to linger in the past.

It will take time for me to fully heal but I am enjoying the process. I'm rediscovering myself again and I can do things without asking if it's alright to do this or that. I am doing past hobbies again and started self-care. The most important lesson I learned was: I don't need someone's validity and I am the one who can love myself the most.