Daydreamer

 “A vision without action is called a daydream; but then again, action without a vision is called a nightmare.” — Jim Sorensen 

 

Before the year 2022 started, I really wanted some changes in my life and set up some groundwork during the previous year. I used to think that I won’t able to go back to pursue my passion and constantly daydream about outcomes if I made different choices in the past.

 

 

I think I have mentioned before in one of my posts that one of my wake-up calls is the death of an important figure in my life. He is Sir Jimmy Oblena, a professor we all cherish. He is a visual artist and photographer among others. Upon learning his passing, it made me look back on the past and recall his advice. I had a realization and asked myself "what am I doing?".

 

Eventually, I grew tired of repeated stuff and I know deep inside my heart that I want to do something else and it was not always about the money. When Sir Jimmy died, I was really devasted not just because of his death but also for myself. Like why did I give up? I could’ve made small projects even for myself to keep the creativity going with a day job and not blame the world for my fate.

I don’t really want to credit my recent ex for this but he was actually the one who pushed me to just follow my passion. I guess if he didn’t motivate me back then, I won’t be here where I am now.

 

 

We broke up in February this year and I’ve realized that I wasn’t doing this for anyone. I wanted this for myself and the heartache only encouraged me to keep going forward. I took a leap of faith, planned things, and slowly managed to be creative again. Having a broken heart won’t stop me this time and I have been through the worst in my life.

I used to daydream that my life would be different but nothing would change if I won’t take action. I keep telling myself “do one thing you can do today and focus on that”. Small progress is still progress and look what I have achieved so far. Managed to update my website, my DeviantArt and Behance are both alive, started my Pinterest too, and from 50+ followers on Instagram now I have 1,680+ as of this writing.

 

 

I still have a long way to go yet I can’t imagine not having progress like this half a year ago. There are things that I want to set in motion at the right time but I have responsibilities I have to fulfill in order for them to come to fruition. In my conclusion, I just want to say that it’s up to us to define ourselves and if we really want something to happen then we have to start somewhere even if it means just getting up in bed and fixing the sheets.

{DISCLAIMER: I don't own any of the gifs}